25 Personal Things

I did the "25 Random Things" on Facebook, but thought a more personal list would be a better fit here. You guys already know too much about me, so what's the difference if you learn a few more of my quirks?

1. I lost my virginity at 14. People seem astounded when I tell them that, but I never felt that I started too young or before I could handle the responsibility that came with being sexually active. However, when I see 14 year olds now, they look like children.
2. I know I am pretty but I don't think I am pretty. I am a very confident girl, yet a bundle of neurotic contradictions.
3. My sexual drive positively governs my moods. It has been this way for as long as I can remember and I don't know how to change it.
4. When I want something, or someone, I will move heaven and earth to get it, even if it's bad for me; this is usually the case.
5. I don't understand people who are not that passionate. I have had my heart broken a few times because of this.
6. I don't swallow. Don't even ask. You will never talk me into it.
7. No one in the world appreciates my breasts as much as I do. I touch them constantly.
8. I have fallen in love more times than I can count. I have never fallen out of love. If you were ever inducted into my heart, you are still there, you will be forever. (This includes my ex-husband)
9. Someday, I want another baby.
10. Since the birth of my daughter, I have kept myself in good shape. But now I fear that I have done irreparable damage to my figure in the last few months.
11. I like anal sex.
12. Finally, I accept that I can never have a traditional monogamous relationship.
13. Now that I know this, I am terrified I will never find someone who can accept me for who and what I am.
14. I have been fortunate enough in my life to have more good lovers than bad ones.
15. I loved my husband, I loved our life. It frightens me how easily I was able to adapt to being single again after spending half my life with someone. See #12.
16. Although I love kissing girls and touching girls, I don't love pussy. I consider myself an above-the-waist bisexual.
17. After my separation, I got involved in an emotionally detrimental relationship with a married man. Aside from this, you will never find a mention of our relationship in my blog. I loved him, I respect his privacy.
18. People always considered me to be quite open, because I talk a lot and share personal little anecdotes about my life easily. It was enough to distract people from the fact that I never shared anything of substance.
19. One of my friends, someone who I love dearly, also does this...AND IT FUCKING DRIVES ME NUTS.
20. When I was younger, I had so much unprotected sex that I am still in amazement that I made it through unscathed and healthy. I am now the Condom Nazi; I never even leave the house without them.
21. I have fucked on the first date. I don't believe in waiting past the third though. Second date is usually my sweet spot.
22. Compliments make me uncomfortable. VERY uncomfortable. I believe this comes from...
23. I spent half my life with someone who vacillated between ignoring me and blatantly disrespecting me.
24. When I am incredibly turned on, my brain ceases to function. As Clothespin has told me more than once, I literally get my brains fucked out.
25. I masturbate a lot. More than a lot. I love myself more than anyone else ever will. :)

Being "single" on Facebook

I recently changed my relationship status to "Single" and now the ads alongside my Facebook page have all changed with it. Now I get ads for match.com, eHarmony.com and JDate. No thanks to all three.

If they are going to capitalize on my single status by blasting me with this crap, I want to see the ads to the good places, to the dirtier sites. Show me ads to real hookup sites...and make them JUICY! I don't want to yawn, or worse, cringe in horror, when I see these ads. I want to look over and say to myself, "He's single? How do I contact him?" or even better, "How do I get to take a ride on THAT thing?"

Not everyone who is single is looking for a happily ever after. Not everyone wants to find their perfect someone and fuck up a fantastic dating streak.

I'm going to my room to be my own perfect someone for a while.

In a funk

I don't know if it's aggravation or just a general feeling of malaise, but I don't have the patience for people right now. I am not even attempting to be polite to people on these silly sites. If your profile or message rubs me the wrong way at all, you get banned for life from contacting me.

If this mood lasts much longer, I should have maybe 7 or 8 eligible men left on AFF that are even allowed to contact me. That should make managing my e-mail a little easier.

Love and Loss

I still believe in love. I would rather love a thousand times and get it wrong, than live without it in my life. But I am a practical girl; Love does not conquer all. Love barely even fixes things. It usually fucks them up pretty badly.

I have loved and lost and loved again and lost some more. I am strong enough to own my feelings and deal with them and move on. If only other people had as much faith in my ability to deal with my feelings. I don’t ask for much, just honesty and directness. If you don’t feel the same, it’s my problem, not yours.

Recently, I made the very human folly of falling for someone I was involved with. Our relationship was based mainly on a great friendship and mind-blowing sex. But I broke the rules and fell for him. When I asked him how he felt about me, he told me we should both move on. He decided we should be “just friends.” The thing is, we were already great friends…and still are now. I didn’t need our relationship to change, just my expectations of it. I needed to know just so I could own my feelings, deal with them and carry on. Now I have a dear friend who won’t fuck me. I wouldn’t trade this particular friendship for anything in the world, even the mind-blowing sex, but if he had had just a little bit of faith in my ability to compartmentalize my emotions, I wouldn’t have had to give up the rest of it.

So now I wonder, am I being punished for my mistake of falling for someone who warned me he wasn’t looking for a relationship or simply because I have a big mouth and believe in being direct?

Lets meet tonight :)

I will arrived last night and leaving tomorrow and looking for fun tonight!!

I am staying in the **** Marriott.and would love to meet a sexy intelligent lady for dinner, cocktails and if we hit it off….wild sexy times in my hotel?

I am a highly educated professional that needs to be discreet...but I still do have a fun wild side to me!!

If interested I can send more info and pics for sure.

Ps… ****4rick at you know what dot cum is easiest for me if you can?

Take care

Really?
Profile says he's married and there is no photo on his profile, nor was one attached to the e-mail. How can I even decide I am not interested without seeing how gross he really is?

My response:

Oh, because intelligent women always meet strangers without even having a conversation first? And discriminating woman meet men without ever seeing a photo of them?
No thanks.
ROFL

Hard up -- Is that a bad thing?

I swear, that is the tagline that prefaces the profile that features this photo:






Does that cock look hard up to you?






Oh, and it gets better...he features three other limp cock photos taken outdoors.

What's that?

You want to see?


Evidently, he's a tree lover.
I love an environmentally conscious man.

First post of 2009!

I wish I had something more interesting to report.

I wake up and this is the first message I see...

The DarkLrd: you look familiar. Have we ever met before?
I (refrain from responding): No, because I am young, hot and interesting. Clearly, we have nothing in common.

Give me a little while to drink my coffee and I might just send it.