Monday, February 23, 2009

Odd and Random Coincidence

Whilst running through my myriad of AFF messages several weeks back, I came across a rather amusing message. The guy just had a dorky sense of humor, even in the first, opening e-mail. We all know how I love that. I wrote back and the e-mail exchange began.

Before long we were chatting online, then on the telephone. I knew he was also a single parent of a young child, living not too far from me. Because of this, I felt more comfortable than usual talking about my daughter. I mentioned something they were learning about in school, and he commented that his son was learning the same thing. Maybe it's a rather standard preschool curriculum, I thought.

Later in the conversation he made another comment that made me wonder about the coincidence. I asked him where his ex-wife lived, assuming his son went to school near there. He told me there was a great preschool down the street. I know, I told him, because that's where I used to live and where my daughter goes to school, also.

Odd and random. Good thing we hit it off when we met in person a few weeks ago.

Although we haven't run into one another at drop-off or pick-up (I am usually running late in the morning and I work later than he does in the evenings), there was a big school event the morning after I spent the night the first time. My legs still a bit weak, I rushed out the door to meet my family and head down there, just to run into him before we even found our seats. Maybe at the next school event, I will dare to sneak a kiss.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Floating off to Nowhere Land

If I had to describe myself, I would say that I am like a Mylar balloon, filled with helium. A balloon is shiny and pretty and makes people happy. As long as it is tethered to something concrete, it is free to float around happily and make people smile.

But once it comes loose, it has no control over its actions and could easily float off into Nowhere Land.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

25 Personal Things

I did the "25 Random Things" on Facebook, but thought a more personal list would be a better fit here. You guys already know too much about me, so what's the difference if you learn a few more of my quirks?
  1. I lost my virginity at 14. People seem astounded when I tell them that, but I never felt that I started too young or before I could handle the responsibility that came with being sexually active. However, when I see 14 year olds now, they look like children.
  2. I know I am pretty but I don't think I am pretty. I am a very confident girl, yet a bundle of neurotic contradictions.
  3. My sexual drive positively governs my moods. It has been this way for as long as I can remember and I don't know how to change it.
  4. When I want something, or someone, I will move heaven and earth to get it, even if it's bad for me; this is usually the case.
  5. I don't understand people who are not that passionate. I have had my heart broken a few times because of this.
  6. I don't swallow. Don't even ask. You will never talk me into it.
  7. No one in the world appreciates my breasts as much as I do. I touch them constantly.
  8. I have fallen in love more times than I can count. I have never fallen out of love. If you were ever inducted into my heart, you are still there, you will be forever. (This includes my ex-husband)
  9. Someday, I want another baby.
  10. Since the birth of my daughter, I have kept myself in good shape. But now I fear that I have done irreparable damage to my figure in the last few months.
  11. I like anal sex.
  12. Finally, I accept that I can never have a traditional monogamous relationship.
  13. Now that I know this, I am terrified I will never find someone who can accept me for who and what I am.
  14. I have been fortunate enough in my life to have more good lovers than bad ones.
  15. I loved my husband, I loved our life. It frightens me how easily I was able to adapt to being single again after spending half my life with someone. See #12.
  16. Although I love kissing girls and touching girls, I don't love pussy. I consider myself an above-the-waist bisexual.
  17. After my separation, I got involved in an emotionally detrimental relationship with a married man. Aside from this, you will never find a mention of our relationship in my blog. I loved him, I respect his privacy.
  18. People always considered me to be quite open, because I talk a lot and share personal little anecdotes about my life easily. It was enough to distract people from the fact that I never shared anything of substance.
  19. One of my friends, someone who I love dearly, also does this...AND IT FUCKING DRIVES ME NUTS.
  20. When I was younger, I had so much unprotected sex that I am still in amazement that I made it through unscathed and healthy. I am now the Condom Nazi; I never even leave the house without them.
  21. I have fucked on the first date. I don't believe in waiting past the third though. Second date is usually my sweet spot.
  22. Compliments make me uncomfortable. VERY uncomfortable. I believe this comes from...
  23. I spent half my life with someone who vacillated between ignoring me and blatantly disrespecting me.
  24. When I am incredibly turned on, my brain ceases to function. As Clothespin has told me more than once, I literally get my brains fucked out.
  25. I masturbate a lot. More than a lot. I love myself more than anyone else ever will. :)